Maybe it's the rain, or my hormones. Maybe it's the amount of change in my life in the last 6 months. Maybe it's because I can't quit thinking about everything and everyone that I've lost. But I've really really really feeling it lately. "It" is that almost in tears, could lose it at any minute feeling. Wishing I could snap out of it. Trying to focus on what I have, on what's good in my life. Push all the negative away. I can't say that it is really working.
Do you ever just feel like you are all alone in the world, even with all the people you love around you?? Do you ever feel like no one would really get it, so you just don't bother to talk about it? And when you start to, all your feelings that you hear coming out of your mouth sound completely stupid?? Is it just me?

Now, don't go getting all freaked out or worried. You know who you are, Mom. I'm just seeing if this form of therapy works for me, and I'm typing out loud. I'm trying to navigate this path I'm on right now and I guess I'm just sitting, idling, trying to read the map.

Words to remember:
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Phillipians 4:8